Lo Que Soy

I say: UPDATE

2009-11-01T02:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Grabe, gising pa ako. Masyado kasi akong natutuwa sa paggawa ng icons para sa Livejournal eh. Hekhekhek. Anyways, sorry kung hindi ako nakapag-update for, like, a month because of school and other obsessions *GLEECOUGHGLEE*. Aaaaand, ayon. Natutuwa ako dahil medyo nag-improve na ako sa photoshop. Shaaare ko lang. XD. At halos isang buong araw ko ding pinag-isipan kung paano ko pagagandahin yung layout ko sa Livejournal. So after a hard day's work, ta-da!

Grabe, wala talaga akong kwentang mag print screen. Di pa gitna. Tsk tsk.

Ayun. And I'm trying to go back to my old ways. Alam niyo ba, na nung elementary ako ay marami akong pasyente? I mean, medyo may pagkadoktor ako para sa kanila. Yeah, totoo yun! So ayun, namiss ko yun. These days kasi ako lagi yung 'pasyente', ako lagi yung miserable. Di naman ako nakakatulong. So, ayun, back to my old passion. Theeen, lapit narin pala ang periodic test. Nakuuu! Dami pang projects na aatupagin. Super good luck nalang talaga sa atin. *insert evil laugh*

P.S. Since Halloween, naalala ko tuloy yung time na nagtreat or treat ako sa SM. Grabe, kasumpa-sumpa yung isang pizza place na binigyan ako ng ketchup imbes na candy. sabaw e. :))

'til next time. See you at the flipside. :)

You come along because I love your face.

2009-09-20T01:47:00.000+08:00

Download niyo yung bagong favorite ko ngayon, dali. :P:P Grabe, namiss ko po ang Panic! At the Disco. Medyo nanahimik sila kasi may umalis atang band member. Pero ngayon, balik na sila. Weee! Namiss ko yung I Write Sins Not Tragedies and Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off days, lalo na nung first year. Sa service, super soundtrip lang kami. :>

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here
(Can we fast-forward to go down on me?)

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here
(Can we fast-forward to you go down on me?)

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'Cause seeing clear would be the bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here

How did you get here under my skin?

2009-09-20T01:05:00.002+08:00

Ang saya naman ng araw ko! Haha, kasi, weee, may bago na akong salamin! PURPLE pa. Hindi naman halatang miss na miss ko na ang marconibonikids.Nagbike din ako nung hapon and I even tried to paint my nails black. Kaya lang, lagpas lagpas ako maglagay kaya nude brown nalang para hindi halata. I also opened my Adobe® Photoshop® because I really miss editing pictures. Ngayon, nanunuod ako ng WWE, hahaha. mygaaad. Anyway, ang dami kong naedit na pics and here's some of them (not really the exact size, I just cropped them for the sake of presenting it to you):

If you like what you see, I can recolor your sweet nothings for you! ;)

And oops, epal talaga ang Facebook®. Pang-asar talaga eh. When I'm trying my best to stay positive as long as I'm breathing here's what he's (I decide that Facebook® is a boy. LOL) doing to me:

Thanks Nix for the wonderful tutorial about printscreens! :P

btw, before I go..

Happy Birthday

Mark Joseph Pascual!
(belated.:P)

Where did I go wrong?

2009-09-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

On this day of your life, Jonah Alyssa, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can't rid the world of sorrow, but you can choose to live in joy.

Sorrow is with us not because we are bad at stopping it, but simply because it's part of being human. What matters is not whether good or bad things happen - both will, but your relationship to them. Just think back over the last 24 hours, - what had you taken hard that you could have taken lightly?

Thanks Lord. :')

Every hello ends with a goodbye.

2009-09-17T01:19:00.000+08:00

Ang gloomy ng Wednesday ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi mataas ako sa quiz at walang MAPEH. Pero, I dunno. I just don't feel okay yesterday. Pasensya na sa mga taong naaway ko. Welcome nga pala sa iCarly Season 3. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENESON GUALVEZ!

HOROSCOPE ko for the day.

2009-09-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

Details, details, details! Facts and figures are swarming all over you today, and they could create quite a buzz in your brain. Save yourself some stress by getting some advice from the voice of experience. Admit defeat when it's appropriate, and don't suffer a bad outcome just because you are too embarrassed to ask for help. You can turn a day of frustration and shame into a day of enlightenment and learning if you just swallow your pride.

pray to God he hears you.

2009-09-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

Wuu. Super bagong buhay ako ngayon. Well, dahil 2nd quarter na at kailangan ko ng ayusin ang buhay ko. At alam mo, hindi lang pala ako ang nagbabagong buhay, ang Physics din! Pamatay naman kasi kaya ang bagong grading system ayon kay "bosing". Hehe, anyway. Napansin ko a, masyado akong masaya ngayon. Ewan, I think sumobra. May iba, super iba. Nakupo, hindi naman sa nababaliw na ako. Siguro dahil nagbago na ako? Ganun ba yun? Wenks. Wala akong ginawa buong araw kundi ngumiti at tumawa. Ewan. Weiiird.

Di na ako suicidal ngayon, so wag na kayo matakot. I'll just fix myself in the hard way. Well, alam na ni Kim yun, ata. Wag ka na rin mag-alala Jes, baka magkawrinkles ka nean. Jan, don't worry, di ako magpapakamatay anytime. Mejo depressed pa rin ako pero cge lang ng cge. Dami ko rin ikukuwento sa'yo.

Nah, at saka alam niyo, kahit na super happy ko, at kahit may mga pagbabago, ako pa rin naman si Jonah e. Yesss! Actually, cguro, ito yung elementary days na chona na walang pakialam sa mundo. Siguro ganun na ako ngayon. Wenks! Pero aral pa rin. GC na daw akuuu. Thanks nga pala kay Tif kanina kasi pinakinggan ang mga kwento kong nakadedepress. Waaa, thanks Tif. I super owe you. Haha. >:D<

Kim, should I or shouldn't I? :[

I'm holding every breath for you.

2009-09-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

Everyday I walk towards you hoping I’d somehow get to be with you for at least a moment. But it’s hard for me to catch up with you if you’re also trying to catch up with someone else

Well, good night. Nakapagbasa na rin ng ST, sana matandaan ko mamaya. XD.

It's friggin' cold!

2009-09-09T21:46:00.002+08:00

Ever wish songs actually sang about what was happening in the music video? Well now they do!

...

2009-09-09T01:46:00.001+08:00

Tao rin naman ako e.

No it don't break even.

2009-09-09T01:26:00.002+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no

Good morning. Can't do anything right today. I don't feel well. I'm still infuriated with my effin' grades that's so wrong in many levels. My head hurts, my heart---oh well. I don't care, and you don't. Good luck to me, good luck to you. (Haha, gaya gaya talaga ako sa pag-eemphasize ng fave parts ko ng kanta).

Cleverbot: How are you?

User: I'm sad. :'(

Cleverbot: Why are you sad?

User: Because I feel alone.

Cleverbot: Why do you feel unloved?

Sus, ang drama. But atleast may paki si CLEVERBOT. dapat CAREBOT nalang pangalan niya. Nice touch. Lakas pa, Maring. >:)

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If you don’t correct them when they upset you, they will never learn to treat you with respect.

Cleverbot.

2009-09-06T01:07:00.003+08:00

Thanks Ada. :)
I like messing up with my cleverbot. XD

user: Luke....I am your father....

Cleverbot: father?

user: yes, you are my son....

Cleverbot: my god!

user: I am Darth Vader....

Cleverbot: Yes, I know.

user: Oh. Then you are my son. D'oh.

I'm falling to pieces.

2009-09-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

When you want someone who can never be yours, it only gives you pain. That’s why, be careful in loving someone, ‘cause I don’t want you to feel the pain I felt when I so much loved someone whom I thought was mine.

araw-arawin ko kaya ang pagpopost ng quote? haha. anyways, Good night. I don't feel okay. Take care, God Speed, I love you. :)

P.S. Bago ako matulog manunuod muna ako ng iCarly. I miss my daily Freddie fix. :)

Poptropica!

2009-09-05T20:50:00.001+08:00

YAY! WALANG TATAWA.
Bata pa ako kaya pwede pa ako magPOPTROPICA. :)

I don't wanna miss a thing

2009-09-05T18:51:00.002+08:00

When you are stuck loving someone, no matter how hard you try to forget that person. It is just not enough. Sometimes, all we can do is stay away. And it does help a bit, but just for a while because when that person shows you even the smallest gestures of affection, all your efforts of moving on go down the drain. And you are left alone again with nothing else to say but, “Damn! I just fell for that again.”

Bongga ng QUOTESBOX. Anyway, di na naman ako mapigil sa kakablog so I'll review nalang yung nagyaring blackout. Maybe I'll give it four stars. I think mas masaya siya kaysa dun sa huli (sabi ng iba). Ako? I dunno. Basta ako, kinabahan, sumaya, napagod ay umiyak. Ikaw lang ang nakakaalam nun a. :) Nakaka-ampf din magdrums, nabingi ako. Mga nakasayaw ko sa slow songs: ralph, marvin, brennan, junepat, joey, adrian m., jesper, jan, kirkii, and marconi. ♥ Ayos lang naman siya para sa akin e, pero I'm still :| Ako lang ba ang echoserang hindi sumaya ng bongga sa Blackout? Pasensya na a. XD

All I needed was a call

2009-09-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

Infatuation can only hold the mind for a maximum of four months. If it exceeds that point then you are already in love.

You what I want right now? PHOTOBOOTHS. Sometimes I wish I can have those cool strips of funny pictures with my family and friends, and post it on my wall. Just wanna share. :)

Good Evening.

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Lying on the floor, surround me, surround me.

But I missed you too.

2009-09-05T14:59:00.012+08:00

Don’t let anyone ever make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want.
- 10 Things I Hate About You

Good afternoon. Grabe ang ginaw ngayon, first time. :) By the way, I made this blog just to let everyone know na birthday ngayon ni Ma'am Felicerta! Happy Birthday ma'am! She's my first year adviser and she's so cool. I learned alot from her. She's still the adviser of I-Archimedes this year, my former section. Haha, I also miss them. I miss our laughs, our fights, our noise, everything. Kahapon we celebrated her b-day without anything but a cake. Haha, coolness. 3 years na naming ginagawa yun pero walang improvement. XD

Some pics from the little gathering:

TEH CAKE!

Porma lang.

nice Ivy.

Archi girls! ♥

Evolution daw. lmao

nice Martin.

girls...

...and boys!

ARCHI with Ma'am Feli!

Sayang ngalang di kami kumpleto. Promis namin mauulit uli itong celebration next year. :)

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Somewhere between our laughs, our long talks, our stupid little fights and all of our jokes I fell in love.

Huzzah!

2009-09-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

No person has the right to condemn you on how you repair your heart because no one knows how much you’re hurting.
- Grey’s Anatomy

nice. anyway, bagong SKIN na naman. hahahaha, ang vain ng blog ko. pustahan tayo next week iba na naman 'to.

Nobody's perfect and I'm gonna work it

2009-09-01T00:43:00.010+08:00

Haha, halatang walang magawa e. Ga--Bagong gupit kasi e. Sana mag November na para mahaba na siya uli, inaalipusta lang ako nina Marvin e. XDXDXD

J O N A H A L Y S S A
nyaaaw. Grabe, ang dami na namang gagawin. Kasalanan kasi Rizal yun e. :[
Ayy. September 1 na. LET'S CELEBRATE!

Lost and insecure, you found me

2009-09-01T00:29:00.005+08:00

I'm making this post just to thank someone kasi ang laki ng tinulong niya sa akin kagabi. Super. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Basta. Thank you dahil nakinig ka. Thank you dahil kilala mo ako. Thank you dahil sinabi mo sa akin yung totoo (and you slapped it right in front of my face). Thank you dahil tinulungan mo ako. Thank you dahil sa mga advice mo. Thank you for introducing me again to Him. Thank you dahil ngayon, magbabago na talaga ako. Hindi na ako madedepress. Makikita niyo na yung Chona na kilala niyo. Thank you dahil nakilala kita. Thank you best friend. Wooo, ILY. I didn't fail you. Thank you Ralph. You were never late, and you never failed. :)

I think I'm lovestoned.

2009-08-30T21:27:00.004+08:00

Ayan, magbblog na naman ako. hahaha.

So let's start the day with my super duper weird haircut. Grabe, feeling ko balik ako sa grade 1, darn. Haha, mukha daw akong grade 1 sabi ni Kim (mukha naman siyang prep hahaha), mukha naman daw akong magnanakaw sabi ni Ralph (wow, di na bomber). So pagpasok ko sa kotse, grabe ang reaction ng mga tao, para silang nakakita ng...uhh..alien! Weird. Pagdating ko sa school, super reklamo naman ako kay ma'am enoch sa aking haircut.

Flashback:

Bakla: Naku naman yang ina mo, pinababawasan na naman yang buhok mo.
Me: Ang init daw po kasi e
Bakla: O siya.
(Tapos umupo na ako sa death seat and watched as he/she murdered my hair slooowly)
Bakla: *CUTCUTCUT*
Me: *SHIIIPNOOOOCRIES*
Bakla: O ayan na.
Me: Awww. T_T

Tapos bumalik pa ako kasi mali daw ang gupit, super bawas naman daw ang ginawa sa pangalawa. XD

Well, no need to elaborate on that. Basta eto mga reaction nila.

Jessica: Wow, Jonah! nakapagmove ka na! *LOL*
Cate: Nice, anung meron at nagpagupit ka?
Ma'am Enoch: O ayos naman a
Kuya Ralph: Katrina Halili. Haha
Razz: Jan Di!
Ralph: *tingin* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Marvin: Yack. Cnu ka?
Alex: Nice one!

Hayaan na. Haha, so pagdating namin dun ay naghintay hintay lang kami para sa pagdating nina Ma'am Enoch. And then pagpasok namin sa Gym, napunta ako sa Unit 3 (kasama ko si Cate, Ralph at Marvin) and group 3. Ang saya ng mga stations, at saka ang cool ng presentations ng mga brothers. Hahahaha, natuwa naman daw ako dito. Ang labo na kasi ng mata ko e so kung sinu-sino kinakawayan ko.

Ralph: Huy kumaway ka naman kay Alex (sabay turo sa northwest).
Ako: Teka, nasaan? Ah ayun. (todo kaway kay kuyang nakaitim sa likod)
Ralph: Nakita mo ba?
Ako: Actually di eh
Ralph: Ay ayun o (sabay turo sa bandang gilid)
Ako: Ayon? Okay (kaway)
Ralph: Nakita mo?
Ako: Uhhh. di talaga. T.T
Ralph: Anokaba. Ayun, nasa second row, nakasalamin!
Ako: Ow shucks. HI ALEX! (todo kaway)
Marvin: Mas nakakahiya kung dun ka kumaway o. Hi Alex! (sabay kaway sa likod)

And then punta na kami sa different stations. Ang saya kasi okay naman yung mga kagroup ko. Ang bait nila. Tahimik sila at ako naman ay madaldal. XD. Tawa naman daw kami nung wala akong ballpen. Hahaha. So after nun, lunch na! Pumunta kami ni MArvin, Alex at Ma'am Enoch sa Shakey's.

Ma'am Enoch: O ayan na ang menu. Pili na.
Marvin: Cge po mommy!!
Ako at si Alex: *FACEPALM*

Ako: Ui, anong course mo?
Marvin: Of Course!
Ma'am Enoch: *Rolls Eyes*

Ma'am Enoch: Babayaran niyo ako mamaya ah!
Marvin: Tapos di pala kami sasabay sa inyo. Haha

So ayun, ang corny ni Marvin. hahahaha. Pagbalik namin dun ay nagmass. Tapos pumunta kami sa stage para bisitahin si bro. Aaron. Ang galing niya. :D:D. And then umuwi na kami. Sumabay ako sa mga nagLRT, at pagdating sa LRT, inasar asar na naman nila ako. Pagbaba namin, nagpartways na kami. Ang cool nga e, nagkita rin sa kabilang side ng station. XDXD. After that, sumakay na kami bus pagdating sa PArk n' Ride and bumili kami ng food nina kuya Ralph and Sophia. Ang takaw namin. Pinag-usapan din namin ang Research and Teachers. Woop. Pagdating sa SM Bacoor ay bumaba kami ni Sophia para samahan siyang bumili ng filecase. Nagstay muna kami sandali sa food court upang magpahinga at mag-usap.

What a wonderful day. :)

Stop, look and listen.

2009-08-25T03:31:00.003+08:00

Teka.

Ngayon ko lang napansin a, masyado na atang malungkot ang blog ko, Nakakainis. Haha. Ewan, sorry naman kasi kung medyo problemado ako ngayong taon. Pero, medyo ayos na ako (oo, totoo na 'to. Swear). So, titigilan ko na ang aking mga "Emong" blogs at magbabagong buhay na ako. Besides, we should live life to the fullest, frak everything else and do yer own thang! Arr mateys!

Anyways, ano bang nangyari kahapon? Wala naman masyado, nagpresent lang naman kami ng Tala sa MAPEH. Whew, buti naman at maganda yung kinalabasan ng aming practice. Yes. And then, ayon, nawala na ang mga uncertainties ko sa ibang bagay. Masaya na uli ako. Pero magiging masaya kaya ako kung nalaman ko na ang score ko sa Physics mamaya? Gusto ko na magcartwheel sa kaba. Sana kasing taas din siya ng english test ko (asa naman daw ako. hahahaha)

Malapit na rin pala ang Blackout! Todo promotion pa nga kami e, gamit ang mukha ni Brian Mara. Cool. akala ko kasi joke time lang yun ni Tiffany. Pero nooooo. Haha. Kailangan ko na rin pala bumili ng bagong tshirt para mukha naman akong presentable pag magkakalat na ako sa unahan. Wish me luck.

Jess Z: Ei, kaya natin to! ;)

Where were you when everything's falling apart?

2009-08-23T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Gusto ko na talaga umalis sa school ko. Nahihirapan na ako sa buhay ko ngayon, with all the problems that try to pull me back everytime I take a step forward. Lagi nalang akong ganito. Napapagod na akong umiyak tuwing gabi, or even at the most random times. Sana naman maging considerate kayo sa akin, sana naiinitindihan niyo ako. I'm sorry kung araw-araw nalang ako nalulungkot kasi hindi ko na kaya. I'm sorry, di ko na kayang maging masaya. Mahirap naman mag pretend. I'm sorry kung hindi ko masabi sa inyo yung problems ko, kasi alam ko naman na lalo lang kayong maguguluhan. I'm sorry.

I just need a shoulder to cry on right now, when I think everyone's leaving me. Please, I hope you'll understand. I'm pretty messed up right now, with all those personal problems and the pressures of school's been crushing me. Sana wag niyo naman akong iwan. :( Di ako emo, it's just that hindi ko na kaya. Sana dumating na yung time na gigising ako sa umaga ng nakangiti, at uuwi sa bahay ng nakangiti. Namimiss ko na kasi yun, namimiss ko na yung dating Jonah na masayahin. Pero kaya ko 'to. I know I can. Just let me cry until I feel better, and my tears run dry.

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?

2009-08-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

At ako ay nagbabalik. Super hassle ang week na ito para sa akin, physically, intellectually and emotionally. Hayy, atleast ngayon okay na...medyo. Pero okay na yun, kaysa naman sa super hindi okay. Anyways,

Day 1.

Maaga ako pumasok para makasama ko ang Marconi. Miss ko na kasi sila. Ayun, nagpababa ako sa tapat ng Mcdolibee upang makita na sarado pa sila. Mcdo, 24 hours my ass. Anyway, pumunta nalang ako sandali si Jollibee para hintayin na magbukas ang Mcdo. Pagpunta ko naman dun ay bumili ako ng mcmuffin habang hinihintay ko sina Ada. So dumating na sila, and then fineel naman namin yung lamig ng Mcdo bago kami bumalik sa Masci. Since pasaway ako, doon kami umupo sa gitna. Nostalgic daw kasi.

Habang tumatagal, nafifeel ko na umaatake ang sakit ko, buti nalang mabait si Brennan at nibilhan niya ako ng gamot (Thanks Brennan!). Haha, ayon. Grabe, ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko habang nakaupo ako sa stage kasama si Ivy. Thanks Ivy sa pakikinig. Nyaaaay. Tapos, waaa, since wala ako masyadong naaral kaya nanginginig ako sa kaba.

[x] ENGLISH madali lang siya, super. Nalito lang ako dun sa figures of speech.

[x] FILIPINO madali lang din siya, hindi ngalang ako nakapag-aral tungkol sa Noli so nyaaaw.

[x] MAPEH lalalalalala~ kunwari walang ganitong subject. :/

[x] CHEMISTRY ewan, kinakabahan ako dito. Di kasi ako nakapag-aral. Stored knowledge lang ang meron ako.

So sa pag-uwi. Uhm. Wala lang. Biglang nalungkot, nainis, awww.

Day 2.

Pumasok na naman ako ng maaga. Dating gawi, nagpasimple lang ako sa Jollibee tapos pumunta sa Mcdo. Dumating na naman sina Ada tapos kasama na si Nicole! Yay. Anyways, ayon, di na naman ako nakapag-aral kasi...basta, wala ako sa mood at masama pakiramdam ko that time. So sad.

Pagpunta namin sa school, wala lang. Then ang dami ng dumating, naabala rin ako sa idlip ko. Tapos binali bali pa ni doc yung mga daliri ko. Nyaaaw, nahirapan tuloy ako sa pagsusulat. Siguro ito narin yung first time na nakausap ko siya ng medyo matino for a week. Nyaw. And then after that, pumunta lang kami nina Czarina at Ivy sa Mcdo, and then boom. Wala lang. Kinakabahan na naman ako.

[x] JOURNALISM actually madali lang siya, kung nagbasa lang ako ng current news. Wala rin akong clue tungkol sa school newspapers. nyay.

[x] AA ooooh, ayos lang. Di ko ngalang natapos, bigla akong nakatulog. Grr. Mababa daw kami dito e, so *cries*

[x] COMSCI wala na. :[

[x] SOCIAL STUDIES nyaaaaw. Actually mas madali siya kaysa sa summative.

Pag-uwi... wala akong masyadong maalala. Hmmm. Anong meron.

Day 3.

Mas maaga, so di narin nakapag Mcdolibee. Nyaaaw. Hindi na naman ako nakapag-aral kasi inuna ko yung MAPEH powerpoint, hayy, gusto ko na umiyak.

[x] TECHNICAL WRITING madali siya...compared sa mga sumunod na test.

[x] TRIGONOMETRY hayyy, nalito ako dun sa iba, super. Malas ko talaga. :((

[x] PHYSICS this is what you called the hell test. Pero infairness, wala akong hinulaan dito. Nagsolve ako, atleast di ako manghihinayang kung sakaling mababa ako.

[x] ABR kunwari wala akong naaalala tungkol dito.

Pagkatapos ay ayun, dapat may band practice kaya lang hindi natuloy, akala ko kasi magppractice kami ng tala. Hindi naman pala. Asar. Ayon. Nag-usap nalang kami nina Tiff tungkol sa blackout. And then, dumating Marconi (my second family), and then, ayun. Nabadtrip ako bigla (ayoko nga sabihin kung bakit), and then I suddenly felt better dahil sa kanila! Sana sila nalang kaklase ko next year. Nyaaaaw. Pinaalis kami ni ma'am Palisoc sa quad kasi maingay kami. Yes.

Pagdating namin ni Jessica sa Mcdo, nakita namin si Klang, Kim at Marian. Aww. There's a problem. Nandito lang kami for you Klang, super mahal kita. :)

Ayun, ewan. Basta. I don't think I can be okay anymore. Hindi ko nalang ipapahalata. I might be in pain but it's my choice not to look miserable.

Ignorance is my new bestfriend.

2009-08-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

Haynako.
Ang pangit talaga ng week na 'to.
Naiinis na talaga ako.
Gusto ko na umiyak.
Satingin mo ba hindi ako nahihirapan? Ugh.
Tapos dumadagdag pa yang periodic.
Parang nagsasawa na akong pumasok sa school,
kung sa tuwing papasok naman ako ay lagi nalang ganoon.
Ayoko na.
Ayoko na rin magblackout party.
Ayoko na pumasok.
Ayoko na kayo makita.
Wag niyo nalang akong pansinin, baka hindi ko rin sabihin sa inyo.
Akala niyo ba sa tuwing tatawa ako ay okay ako? Sus, maraming namamatay sa maling akala.
Hindi muna ako magbblog hanggang sa pagkatapos ng periodic. Tapos.

P.S. Panoorin niyo nalang yung bagong music video ng Paramore, baka sakaling maliwanagan kayo sa buhay. -_-

Whoa- Oh- Whoa

2009-08-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

Gising pa rin ako. Mygaaad. This time, hindi sa hindi ako makatulog, kundi kailangan talagang gising at inaatupag ang mga dapat atupagin. Asar. August 17 na pala.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATRINA!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MISS NA KITA. :'(

O ayan, mag-uupdate muna ako para mabawasan stress ko. Wala parin kaming music video. Bullsheep. 1 day nalang pala no... 1 day... then after that, I'll make sure na magbabago na ang lahat. Yay. Makicountdown kayo. :]

Alam kong mahihirapan ako sa gagawin ko, try ko lang naman e. Alam ko naman na wala lang sa inyo 'to. Pakasaya nalang kayo. XD. Then nakikisali ang periodic, haha. weee. Susunugin ko ang kilay ko para makabawi sa grades at sa expectations na sinayang ko. :(

Grabe, ang bangag kong post. :[

2009-08-16T22:14:00.003+08:00

Waaaa. Hindi ko na talaga kaya. Peste naman kasi sa dami ng ginagawa, nagagagalit narin si mommy kasi ang lapit na daw ng periodic test pero hindi parin ako nag-aaral. Kasalanan ko kasi ito e, at nung mga...requirements! Ugh! Kung ginawa ko sana ng mas maaga ang physics project at TW ng mas maaga, hindi sana ako suicidal sa pagmamadali ngayon. Pero, in my defense, paano ko yun magagawa kung marami rin akong ginawa last week? Tapos sunod-sunod pa ang pagbibigay sa akin ng hirap ng ibang tao. Haaay. Kahit hindi ako presidente ang hirap parin ng buhay ko, waaa, bakit ganun? Feeling ko nga mas maaga natutulog sa akin si Orven eh. Wah, di ko na kaya. Magpupuyat na naman ako, pagod na ako magpuyat. Pagdating naman sa school, bigla nalang akong makakatulog. Tapos hindi ko pa maiintindihan yung lesson. Wala na sa tamang daan ang pag-aaral ko. Haaay, naiinis na ako. Gusto ko na sakalin yung kapitbahay ko! Ugh! Bwiset na buhay! Hindi pa ata makapag online si Nicole para maipasa sa akin yung mga video clips. T*****ng buhay ito o. Waaah, kamalasmalasan naman namin. Hindi na naman ako matutulog niyan sa kakagawa ng report at music video! Ugh! Tapos aabsent na naman ako, magagalit na naman sa akin si mommy. Wala na daw sa tama ang working habits ko! Ugh! BUTTER! Waaaah, tapos pag aabsent na naman ako, mamimis ko na naman ang report sa MAPEH, tatawagin na naman akong iresponsable, mazezero na naman kami. Ugh. Wah, kailangan ko ng tulong, please... :(

I'm going down in flames for you.

2009-08-16T02:44:00.001+08:00

Oha. Halatang hindi ako mapigil sa kakablog. Hay. anyway, I'll make this a weekly tradition. Everyweek magpopost ako ng kanta para malaman niyo. Wala lang. Share!

Self- inflicted
Katy Perry

Remember when I dove into the crowd
And I got a bloody knee under my skin, a mark from wiping out
It brings back the memories
Every bone's been broken
And my heart is still wide open

I can’t stop
Don’t care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I’m going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I’m addicted too

With each scar there’s a map that tells a story what a souvenir of Young love's like jumping out
An airplane riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion
My heart rips me wide open

I can’t stop
Don’t care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I’m going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I’m addicted too

And I cover up these scars
(We’ll make it we’ll make it but we break it)
And I can’t stop seeing stars
(lets hope not die)
Whenever you’re around
Around

I can’t stop
Don’t care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I’m going down in flames for you
oohhh you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I’m addicted to

I can’t stop no I can’t stop
no I can't stop
Ohh I’m going out in flames
Ohh I’m going down in flames
Ohhhh
Baby you are the weapon I choose
Baby you are the weapon I choose

Osiya. Gusto ko na matulog pero di ko na naman magawa. Insomnia~

Epal,

2009-08-16T01:05:00.004+08:00

Grabe, nagpapahinga muna ako mula sa paggawa ng ABR kaya nakikipag-usap ako kay Ada. Nagshahare lang naman kami ng Bob Ong quotes, pamatay na tips, at corning jokes. Hahahaha. Grabe, Bull****!! May isang joke na nakapatay sa amin. Hahahahahahahahha! (mula sa quotesbox), pagpalain sana ang gumawa ng joke na ito!

PO: Lola halina at bagong luto pa tong arroz caldo para makahigop po kayo ng sabaw para naman po mainitan ang sikmura niyo. Halina kayo Lola
LOLA: back off bitch.

Grabe, ang bad nung lola. waaaaa. pero infairness, namiss kong tumawa. ang sarap ng feeling.That killed me.

Mr. Kress ♥

2009-08-16T00:44:00.005+08:00

Nathan Kress ~~my love!~~

Nanunuod ba kau ng iCarly? Kung oo, siya na nga yun ( Late kasi ang Nick sa Pilipinas eh so yuck). Yung maliit na mukhang grade 3. whoa, sa mga hindi. Malas. haha. Aww... namimiss ko na siya. :)). Matagal narin pala akong hindi nakakanood nun. Namiss kong tumawa at kiligin. Nyaak. Pakakasalan ko to balang araw. hahahaha. Mygaad.

Edit: parehas pala kami ng chucks!! :))

We'll meet again, when both our cars collide.

2009-08-15T20:44:00.002+08:00

Skins is a british TV show about teen agers. Mejo hindi siya pambata kasi may mga scenes invloving drugs, alcohol and you know what. Pero, ayon, di ko pinapanood yung mga parts na may You know what, kahit hindi sia full frontal nudity and super obscene. hahaha. basta. Yun, kahit ganoon siya, may lesson parin. Something about friendship, growing up and love. XD

So, magshashare nalang ako ng quotes.

Emily: [crying] What do you do, if someone you love let's you down? When he fucks you over?
Thomas: You must try stop loving them.

Diba, ang cool. Basta, leaaaaarn. Si Emily kasi ay iniwan ng kanyang loved one, which is Naomi. Yes, she's gaaaaaaay. She never felt the love Naomi has for her. :(

Jal: After time, denial and bargaining will give way to a depression. In this phase, a sense of emotional loss is amplified and may seem unbearable. In this phase, the feelings of low self-esteem and hopelessness are common, but these will finally give way eventually to the final phase of acceptance, and understanding that what has been lost can never return, and that life can continue, although it may be very different.

So true, right? You just have to let go and move on. Kahit mahirap, it's all worth it in the end.

freddie: we'd be good together, don't you think?
effy: no.
freddie: why?
effy: because i'll break your heart.
freddie: maybe i'll break yours.
effy: nobody breaks my heart, and anyway, why would i want that?

BASAG. Haha, anyway. Totoo naman diba? Tssssss.

Freddie; Can't you see I just want to make things right?
Katie; You can't. Look at the state of me.
Freddie; What can I do?
Katie; You humiliated me. Effy doesn't even want you.
Freddie; No.
Katie; No, because otherwise she'd be here and not with Cook.
There's nothing I can do to make you want me more than her, is there?

Aww, saklap.

Thomas; Pandora.
Panda; Please, can we start again? I promise, I promise I'll never...
Thomas; Hello. I am Thomas. So glad to meet you.

D'Awwww!!

Saka nalang yung iba... marami pa akong gagawin.

Asa pa.

2009-08-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah, at ako ay nagbabalik. Hindi na emo ang mga post ko. Okay na ako. Marami na akong nakausap. I'm halfway back to my old self (yung masayahing stressed at papansin). Oh yeah, ahuh, it's my birthday, ahuh!

Grabe, ang dami palang requirements na ipapasa sa monday no? Yung iba kasi dapat naipasa na, kaya lang maraming ginawa last week kaya hindi maisingit sa schedule. Butter, nakakapagod. Kung ililista ko lahat ng gagawin ko, baka bumaha ng dugo sa bahay. Anyway, kaya ko 'to. Kaya natin to. Tayo pa, eh best in cramming tayo.

GCness aside, alam kong may umaaligid na balita na iibahin ni Lim ang pangalan ng Masci. SERIOUSLY??! I mean, What the Buck! ang MSHS ay gagawing PCAHS?! Again, SERIOUSLY??!

Ugh, I know naman na malaki ang respeto ng mga Filipino kay tita Cory (parang close kami eh no), pero I think this Cory obsession is off the hook already. (Ma'am Lazaro, I know you strongly agree with this).

First: They are planning on making her as the National Hero. Okay lang yun, eh paano na si Rizal? Awww.

Second: She's even considered to be turned into a saint. Whaat? Okay, hindi naman sa ayaw ko, peeerooo, let's follow the rules. Wala pa siyang nagawang milagro. The freedom of the Philippines is not counted, hindi yun milagro no, it's more of a heroic act. Pwede pa blessed eh.

Third: She's going to appear on the 500 peso bill alongside her husband. Okay 'to, approve tayo dito.

Fourth: Statues after her are going to be built. Okay, this is cool. Kahit saan pa, as long as maipakita niyo ang appreciation natin sa kanya.

Fifth: EDSA will be renamed as Cory Avenue. Teka, ito ang ayaw ko. Hindi ko naman hate si former president, pero sana naman magbigay din tayo ng galang kay Epifanio delos Santos. Okay? Mar Roxas kasi ang nagpanukala niyan, ayan tuloy inaway-away siya ng pamilya ni delos Santos.

Sixth: Manila Science High School will be renamed as (gasp) President Cory Aquino High School. Owwsheet. Grabe, gusto ko na mamatay. Ano bang pakialam ni Lim sa Masci. Besides, okay na ako na tawaging mascian, kesa naman sa Coryan. Seryoso, kahit katunog pa sia ng mga crush ng mga kaklase ko, wala akong pakialam. Asa naman! Kahit pa gawin nilang President Cory Aquino Science High School yan. Ang dami pang school diyan, wag lang kami, please. May respeto po kami kay president Aquino, sana naman wag niyo lang galawin ang pangalan ng school namin.

Edit: Manila High School daw yun sabi ng iba. Asa naman Tribune, may misquotation kayo (lagot kayo kay Ma'am Basco). haha, Ang daming mascian ang nanginig ang laman sa inyo. Hahahaha, kasama na ako dun. :)

Kaya lang, what's up with all the tributes? Sana ginawa nila ito nung nabubuhay pa siya. Bakit ba lahat ng tao ay naapreciate ang isang tao pag wala na siya? Magiging ganoon kaya ako? LMAO. Kidding.

Basta, ang alam ko, yung iba sa mga pulitiko nagpapautot lang sa mga Pilipino. Humihingi sila ng suporta para sa eleksyon. Satingin niyo ba matutuwa si Cory kung nalaman nila ang pinaggagawa niyo? Para kasing ginagamit niyo lang siya. Ang dami niyo nang pinapaltan, baka naman pati Jollibee at Mcdo, ipangalan niyo narin sa kanya. Kaunting respeto lang dun sa namayapa at dun sa mga binabangga niyo. Tss.

Don't jump into conclusions, mahal namin si Cory, it's just that this is too much. Hindi naman nadadaan sa mga ganyan-ganyan ang pagpapakita ng respeto sa kanya eh.

owsheep.

2009-08-14T01:58:00.000+08:00

haaaay. :[

SONNET 116

2009-08-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Aw. ayan daw yung discussion kahapon e. Sayang wala ako, ang dami ko pa namang ieexplain tungkol sa LOVE. haha. Yeah right. Sige mang-asar pa. TSSS.

Ayun, pahabol ko nalang yung explanation ko. What is Love for me? Love is when a person waits and falls several times. Standing with skinned knees, puffy eyes and even bleeding heart, he says smiling, "Everything's okay. There's always a rainbow after the rain." Smart, isn't it? I'll bear that in my mind.

Here we go again. And I thought I'll be alright. I really am. Pero something's bothering me now. Should I or shouldn't I? That is the question.

Tapos na rin akong magbasa sa Health. So ~~good~~night na.

Osiya.

2009-08-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

Osiya. Hindi na ako malulungkot. I'm going to be extra fine.
Basta, okay na ako. Hindi ko na iisipin yun.
Yeheeeeey. mikikik.

(ang bitter ng PC oh.)

Whew.

2009-08-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

Absent ako ngayon... niice. Napagod kasi ako kahapon kaya hindi ko kayang umatend ng klase... Ayon, I feel better now! Yay! Hindi na ako masyadong nega ngayon, siguro naapektuhan lang ako ng stress. Hehehe, medyo okay na ako. Kaya lang, kinakabahan ako sa mga namiss ko ngayong araw (requirements, those are). Physics recitation, filming sa project, Trigo Summative, Filipino Summative sa Noli. Aw. Sayang. But I guess there's always a rainbow after the storm.

I miss burbies, archi, and matons. :P

Bye.

2009-08-12T01:36:00.005+08:00

Jonah Alyssa Garcia: Jonah needs to care less
Kimberlyxious Capeding: haaay.

Some of the things that are pretty much destroying my well-being these past few days:

I'm totally confused. I feel extremely tired. I'm emotionally stressed. I think I'm dying. I'm losing my friends. I feel so childish. I'm dying a little inside as the day goes by. I'm always the second best. I feel unimportant. I can't do anything right. I'm thoroughly confused. Should I need to sacrifice my only happiness? ~~My heart still aches until now~~. I don't now what to do. I think I need my rest.

I know I should let myself down, but I can't avoid it. I'm sorry. I'm depressed, according to Kim.
Give me one week to decide. One week.

Sorry.

2009-08-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Grabe, super badtrip ako ngayon. Mag-uupdate lang ako upang magsorry. I know I'm so immature, arggh. I shouldn't have, at the first place, let the people around me worry about me. I should have concealed everything with a smile. :[

Sorry Burbs, kung naging umiyak na naman ako kanina. I can't help it. The feeling of irresposibility and worthlessness had overcame my self-esteem once again.
Sorry Kim, Klang, Jes, if sometimes I greet you with a frown. It's hard for me to smile these past few days. Please forgive me if I sometimes rain on your parade. I hope you understand. :'(
Sorry Marconi, whenever I don't attend to our gatherings. I miss you guys so much, I hope you know.
Sorry Seanne, kung kanina namisunderstood kita. Masyado lang siguro akong pagod nung time na yun at iba ang pagkakaintindi ko sa nasabi mo. I'll never do that again.
Sorry Gelli, Czarina, kung masyado akong naging moody kanina. I tend to be gloomy everytime I don't want to do something that I can't. I'm sorry; babawi ako.
Sorry Nicole if I can't even return your hugs with a smile, I really do. I hope you understand.
Sorry Ralph if I can't even tell my problem to you. Sorry rin kung lagi nalang akong ganito. Sorry talaga, ang laki narin ng utang na loob ko sa'yo. Di bale babawi ako.

If I can only tell you how I feel right now. I wish you guys knew, but I can't tell you right now. I can't even understand myself. Maybe this is all because of the pressures of school, friends and home that I can barely cope up with right now. I don't know how to even start, what to say, what to do, to thank you for all the efforts you do to make me smile. Hindi niyo lang alam, nakakatulong iyon. Sobra.

I know everything will be alright in the end. I just hope I can survive the loneliness and the insecurities that I feel through the challenges that I'm going through. Hope you understand.

Happiness

2009-08-09T15:56:00.001+08:00

A little treasure that I found in QUOTESBOX

Happiness? It’s almost indescribable isn't it? Things don't necessarily have to be going right in your life, but they're okay. They're just good enough that you can smile and laugh, and maybe even love. It’s knowing all the things wrong in your life, but not focusing on them. It’s pushing the drama behind you and pushing that smile out front. It's not a fake front and secretly being miserable on the inside. No, it's dealing with all the crap in your life first, so you can enjoy being happy, really happy afterwards. You've got to cry to be able to appreciate a smile. There's no easy path to happiness. But when you reach it, not a million words can describe the feeling.

What hurts the most

2009-08-09T01:22:00.005+08:00

1.}

Ta~da! I now give a little something to think about and take as an advice. Ang cool eh.

"If you're going through hell, keep going."
~Winston Churchill

Ayos no, kasi kung ipagpapatuloy mo lang yan, at hindi ka susuko, matutupad mo lahat ng gusto ko. Sometimes you have to go through the worst times before you can appreciate the best ones. right?

2.}

Isisingit ko na rin pala si Rameses!

Ang cute no? SQUISHY kasi siya dati, kaya lang, parang ang dull niya, kaya pinaltan ko nalang. Haha, originally, XERXES ang itatawag ko sa kanya, para may kakilala si LEONIDAS. Kaya lang, wala kasing bagay na damit para sa isang persian king eh, kaya Pharoah nalang. Level 19 na pala ako, unti nalang malapit ko ng mataasan si Ivy! MWA-HA-HA!!!

3.}

Yehey, may idadagdag na naman ako sa music collection ko. :]

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Everytime na naririnig ko ito, medyo nalulungkot ako, hindi naman ako nakakrelate. Basta, moving siya, gaya nung Dreaming with a broken heart. You know, the songs that were composed with all their hearts, it's just like life in melody. Kahit anu pa yan, you can feel the emotion and the dedication. Hehe, enough with the rambling already. Basta, maganda pakinggan yung mga kantang may kwento at kwenta. haha!

Anyways, gising pa ako. Gusto ko na matulog, okay na ako. Happy ako ngayon, kasi kahit papaano, may [mga] nakaalala sa akin [gumaganun, haha], not that I don't feel important, it's just that I tend to appreciate all those simplest things people do for me. :]

GOODNIGHT!

The Jonah Sign Means Happy Motoring

2009-08-07T02:35:00.003+08:00

Stolen from Nicole!
CLICKY!

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Kills All Known Jonah
>NIICE

2. What do you want other people say about you?
Jonah Saves Your Soul
>HAHA

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is..
Jonah, Take Me Away
>> HAHA. okay.

4. How would you answer a booty call?
It's Different in a Jonah
>Booty call mygaaad. >.< =)) 5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like? Cleans Your Floor Without Jonah >hahahan anu ako floorwax?!

6. To someone you dislike?
Let Your Jonah Do The Walking
> Hahaha, in your face!

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Half the Jonah, All the Taste
>Takte

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Think Once, Think Twice, Think Jonah
> Noiiice

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
Jonah Comes to Those Who Wait
> hahaha, anu ako, himala?!

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
Not Just Nearly Jonah, But Really Jonah
>owwwkay :))

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Only Jonah Can Prevent Forest Fires
>hehehehe

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
You'll Never Put A Better Bit Of Jonah On Your Knife
> Ang angas ng dating eh. hahahahaha

13. What are the best words to describe you?
They Drink Jonah In The Congo
> LOL

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Jonah - It Looks Good on You
> I like that. :))

15. Your last words before you die...
>>Wow! I could have had a Nicole!
~Weh.

16. Your message to a special someone..
Live in Your Jonah, Play in Ours
>Hahahahaha. wow.

17. Title of this post will be...
The Jonah Sign Means Happy Motoring
> Yiss

Thanks.

2009-08-07T02:09:00.003+08:00

Jonah Alyssa Garcia: I'm losing hope, dude.
Joseph Patrick Roxas: noo! you cant
Joseph Patrick Roxas: you deserve to be happy

Aww. Thanks Patrox. Sometimes those simple words mean a lot to me,. Thank you talaga, bro. :]

Noiiice

2009-08-05T01:30:00.001+08:00

Nakita ko:

Ang galing! Super effective nung pampabatang cream! Makabili nga pag naging senior citizen na ako. hahaha. Grabe naman yung gumawa ng ad na ito, sino bang niloko nila? TSK. =)) Di ako makarecover.

More here!

Yayness

2009-08-05T01:14:00.002+08:00

Update again.

I never let love in
so I could keep my heart from hurting
The longer that I live with this idea, the more I sink into this 4/4 beat
I’m in time with you
Whoa, to this 4/4 beat I would die for you (stop this song)

Hoho. Wala lang. Wala akong matype eh. Kailangan ko daw mag-update sabi ni Micah. haha.
ANYWAYS...marami sana akong maikkwento sa inyo ngayon, pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko ito uumpisahan. Siguro next time nalang, if ever there's a next time. LOL!

Nakakapagod naman kahit wala akong masyadong ginagawa this week, maybe because marami lang talaga akong iniisip. As always, it's very exhausting, lalo na kung paulit-ulit mong ginagawa ito. Haaay, I'm still in a bad mood, hindi na mawawala iyon. I'm stuck in a place called Bad Mood for forever, sana may magpalayas sa akin doon. Haha. Darn. I need help. But I need to help myself first. Need. to. do. this.

Wala palang pasok bukas, I mean, ngayon. 1 na pala. Kailangan ko ng matulog ng mahimbing. Masakit narin ang ulo ko. Ayaw kong magising ng late, time is gold. :]

O siya, bye na muna. :-<

P.S. Paalam po Corazon C. Aquino, we will always remember you and your hard work into putting our nation to freedom once again. :)

National Library

2009-08-03T00:39:00.003+08:00

I'm stopping here for an *DUN DUN DUN DUN~!" update!

So ayon nga, what the heck's with NATIONAL LIBRARY? Pumunta nga pala ako doon kahapon for our Library Research sa TW [ Ang galing galing talaga ni Sir Apejas, lalala *clapclap*]. Ang topic ko kasi Tsunami, akala ko saksakan ng dali, hindi naman pala. Da----rn. :D

I started the day by waking up so early, excited kasi haha, at saka may practice ako ng 7:00 a.m. Ang GC ko sa drums, baguhan pa kasi. Sooo... pagpunta ko dun, wala pa si sir. Nyak, almost 40 minutes na yung lumipas so umuwi na ako. Saaad~ la pa kasi akong formal practice, laging nauudlot.

Tapos hinatid ako ni mommy sa school by the bus. Syempre, naka jacket ako kasi umuulan na nun. BLESSING! Pero basa paa ko. Anyways, malamig sa bus kaya nakatulog ako. Mahilig naman akong matulog eh. Hahaha.

Pagbaba ko sa Faura pumunta agad ako sa meeting place, ang walang kamatayan na MCDO! Akala ko ako nalang ang hinihintay doon kasi 10 minutes late ako, yun pala ako yung unang dumating after Gelli [and Proto]. Meron naring ibang sections dun. Best in punctuality talaga ang burbs. Haha, anyways [ayan na naman ako, paborito ko talaga ang ANYWAYS XD], nagutom kami ni Jessica Z, kaya nag-order kami at kumain. Wala na namang ICY BLUE SPRITE FLOAT. Then dumating na si Czarina, Papa P, Mommy P, Regine at Ivy [Yee, ang HABA ng shorts], tapos umalis na kami, sa wakas.

And then, pagpunta dun, marami na ring tao at may mga mas nauna na pala sa amin. Kasama ko ang ibang burbs at si Doc sa Filipiniana section at naghahanap ng articles. Buti nalang medyo maraming articles kaya hindi na ako nahirapan. So ayun, akyat baba kami sa kakaxerox ng aming mga materials. At syempre, di nawawala ang kanilang pang-aapi sa akin. Squishy my ass. XDXD

Since malapit narin mag 2 ay umalis na kami nina Pam, Nix at Ralph papuntang Mcdo. Nakishare nalang ako ng payong kay doc kasi bulok yung akin. Inaasar pa nga nila akong Kokey dahil nakahood daw ako. mygaad. KOKEY? Hindi rin. Hahahaha. Tapos pagdating namin doon ay sinara niya ang kanyang payong sa may ulo ko. Baaad. XD

Sa pagpasok namin sa Mcdo ay nakita namin ang Calvinakkers na maligayang maligaya, nahawa ako ng kanilang kaligayahan kaya nalibre ko si Jan ng wala sa oras. Haha, noiiiice. Then pagkatapos naming umorder ay kumain lang kami sa isang tabi at nagkwentuhan. Syempre hindi nawala sa usapan namin si Nicole at ang kanyang papa R =)). Kung san san na nga napunta yung usapan eh, ang green nila. Grabe. Si Nicole kasi eh.

Anyways [eto na naman ako], pinagtripan din nila ako, di naman nawawala yun. Haha, watdahel, kung anu ano ang pinapagawa sa akin, pasayawin ba daw ako. Hehe. Mas malala parin si Nicole. Then andaya talaga, mas curly yung fries ni nicole kaysa sa fries ko. Sabi naman ni Ralph depende daw yun sa buhok, mas kulot daw yung kay Nicole. Pero mas marami parin yung kay Nix, madaya. Haha. MADAYA!

Almost isang oras na kaming nandoon ng dumating yung mama ni Ralph, akala ko dati medyo masungit yun, hindi pala. Haha, kung anu-ano nga ang nakwento niya sa amin eh. The best parin yung bayaning softdrinks. San ka pa makakakita ng papel na straw? Cool. Tapos umalis na rin sila at naiwan kami. Hinintay pa namin si lorna. Then pumunta na kami ng SM Manila upang magpraktis. Wala parin si lorna. XD

Pagpunta namin doon ay nakita namin sina Gelli at Proto, mainit na ulo ni proto, natakot naman daw kami. Haha, and then pagdating ng 4, jamming na kami sa banyo, este sa Lazers pala. Grabe yung drums, parang lata, nangaroling nalang sana ako. Anyways [eto na naman, haup], nakarating din si Lorna. Medyo nag-improve kami.Medyo, hehehehe. Atleast nagenjoy.

And then pag-uwi namin ay pumunta kami sa PARK and RIDE sa Lawton, doon ay bumili muna ako ng RBX incase na magutom ako sa daan. Sumakay nalang ako sa Tagaytay na bus para mas malamig. So buti nalang at nakaupo ako malapit sa bintana [my favorite place]. Trapik kaya text lang ako ng text, hanggang sa nakatulog ako ng kaunti.

Ang saya ng araw na ito, akalain mo, hindi ako nabadtrip. :]

Halcyon Days

2009-07-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

hongganda ng gising ko.
hongganda ng araw ko.
Di ako naintimidate ni Physics at ni English.
La pang AA.
Ang sarap ng buhay ko ngayon.

I never felt more happy in my life ever since the start of the semester.
Hindi na ako naiinsecure, di ko na feel ang pagiging worthless ko.
Haaaay! :))

Isa nalang talaga. Isa nalang. Sana malagpasan ko na yun.
Para okay na ang lahat. :)

Sometimes I just need to face the fact that I should be contented in what I have now. and where I am. I just need to. Para hindi na ako malungkot at ma-emo bigla bigla. Masaya naman diba, kahit ganito lang, atleast. Do I really have to ask for more eh kung ito lang ang binigay sa akin ni Bro? Weeeeeeee. :P:P

Happy~

-------------------------------------------------------

No you won't,

'cause you're gone, gone, gone,

gone, gone. :x

Bob Ong.

2009-07-19T00:15:00.003+08:00

Ang nakakainspire na mga quotes ni Bob Ong. Tama naman eh. Sana si Bob Ong nalang ang kapitbahay ko, para pag may tanong ako, lalabas lang ako sa aming bahay at mangungulit sa sari sari store niya.

“Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.”

“Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo.”

“Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo
pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan,
ayaw mo lang pansinin.”- Hahaha Sabi naman ni Juan tamad, “Babalik at babalik
parin ang elevator, kaya mas maganda na maghintay ka nalang”

“Pag may
mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din
sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

“Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na
kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya.”

“Mas mabuting mabigo
sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala.”

“Ang
pag-ibig parang imburnal…nakakatakot mahulog…at kapag nahulog ka, it’s either by
accident or talagang tanga ka..”

“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa
pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang
nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.”

”Huwag mong maliitin ang kakayahan mong
tsumamba”

“Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang
madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo,
at mauubos ang oras.”

“Walang taong manhid. Hindi niya lang talaga
maintindihan kung ano ang gusto mong iparating dahil ayaw mo siyang diretsuhin.”

“Kapag pinag-aagawan ka malamang maganda o gwapo ka. Sumama ka sa
mabuti, hindi sa mabait. Sa marunong hindi sa matalino. Sa mahal ka, hindi sa
gusto ka.”

“Kung hindi mo alam kung sino ka, paano mo maipagmamalaki ang
sarili mo?”

“Nalaman kong mali ang laging mamigay ng pad paper sa mga
kaklaseng linta na hindi bumibili ng paper kahit may pambili.”

“Minsan
kailangan mong maging malakas, para amining mahina ka.”

“Masama akong
tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko.”

“Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko “

“Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba
ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil
lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa
anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding
pandesal, maniwala ka

Wooo. Parehas pala kami ng blog post ni Niknox. Okay lang, haha. Parehas lang talaga kaming walang magawa sa buhay. =))

Toasteemuffin

2009-07-18T01:37:00.004+08:00

See, I am planning to learn and improve with the drums. I experienced using it long ago pero yung basics lang. So... I was surfing on youtube and I found Toasteemuffin's channel. Her channel is composed of her drum covers. Grabe ang galing niya. :)

Some of her videos that I pretty much want to learn:

I CAUGHT MYSELF:

HALLELUJAH:

Ang galing no? XD

yiss

2009-07-17T17:06:00.001+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION. :)

Dreaming with a broken heart

2009-07-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

may nadiskubre na naman akong kanta galing kay Doc Agui. XD

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can
hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?

No, she's not
Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When
you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to
say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love
Will you wake up by my
side?

No, she can't
Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall
asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my
hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?

No, you won't
Cause you're gone,
gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The
waking up is the hardest part.

Wala lang akong magawa, maganda lang talaga yung kanta. :))
Anyways, goodluck sa akin sa Physics. Ayoko na magkaroon ng pangalawang strike. Naman. Waaa. :((

P.S. This post has conflicting emotions

Jonakii

2009-07-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Dun dun dun dun!

Happy Birthday

♥ Jonan Mendoza Buan ♥

Wee, ingat. Labyow. :D

Shoot.

2009-07-15T21:56:00.002+08:00

Ewan!
Ewan ko sa inyo, ewan!
Chiiii!
Grr.
Sheeep.

Mood Rings ♥

2009-07-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

We all know the girls that i am talking about
Well they are time bombs
and they are ticking
And the only question's when they'll blow up
And
they'll blow up
We know that without a doubt
Cause they're those girls,
Yeah, you know those girls that let their emotions get the best of them
And i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man

Let's
get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
So we'll be tipped off to when
they're ticked off
Cause we'll know just what they're thinking, just what
they're thinking

She's so pretty but she doesnt always act that way
Her mood's swinging on the swing set almost everyday
She said to me that
she's so happy its depressing(stressed out that its soothing)
And all I said
was someone get that girl a mood ring

Ayon, try niyo siyang pakinggan, ang ganda niya. :)

Anyways, just wanna say na nagbago na mood ko. MWAHAHAHA. Bigla akong sumaya. =)) Kanina halos makapatay na ako ng kalabaw sa galit tapos ngayon ang happy ko na. Nyek.

Sana happy ako lagi.

Sana lagi kong nahahanap ang misplaced happy disposition ko sa bahay. =))

KIRKI!

2009-07-13T22:38:00.004+08:00

DUN DUN DUN DUN!

Happy Birthday

♥KIRK MARVIC SY DEL MUNDO♥

ayun o, hehe. Ingat palagi,

mahal ka ng Marconi.

May libreng shake ka sa akin. :)

I love yow!

White Horse

2009-07-13T21:13:00.003+08:00

Magbblog uli ako (para namang may pakialam kayo).
Ayon... halata namang wala ako sa mood ngayon,

I'M HAVING A BAD DAY!

Well I always do. Dammit. Kailan kaya sasaya ang araw ko ng walang kokontra sa akin?
Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Oh well, I need not to rant about these pointless things, maybe I'll just tell you my day, shall we?

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Ang ganda ng gising ko kanina. First time siya in weeks. Haha, super energetic ko pa pagpasok. Pero parang nawala yun pagdating sa kotse. Ewan ko ba kung bakit, feeling ko naiwan ang aking happy disposition sa bahay. I just listened to THE REMEDY by JASON MRAZ to lighten my mood.

Paglabas palang ng bahay ay umuulan na, hanggang sa school! FTW! Nagpupustahan pa kami kung anong oras masuspend. Haha, di pala matutuloy. Yuck. Then pagpasok ko sa school, ayos lang, atleast walang Flag Cem. Walang mahabang tayuan habang naiipit sa lumalaking populasyon ng Masci. XD.

So pag-akyat ko naman sa Maceda ay nakita ko agad ang mga Burbies. Wee. Ngayon ko lang naman nalaman na may test pala sa AA. Haha, lagot. :P. Then akala namin wala si Sir Arcilla, kasi nung huling umulan ng pagkalakas lakas ay absent siya. Anyways, nandun pala siya. Boom. nag-experiment lang kami.

English~ Ako ang energizer ngayon at naghanda ako ng mystery cases to solve. Nanalo na naman ang group nina Orven, la pa akong prize para sa kanila. woo.

AA~ Test time! As usual, bumaha ng dugo sa classroom. Arrg, bakit ganun? Pag walang test parang ang dali dali ng lesson? hayahay.

Chem~ nagtest din. naka 20/25 ako. MWAHAHAHA. Ang saya katawanan nina Jaysi at nina Danni. =))

Journ~ Hyess, proud ako kasi nagiging active na ako sa Journ. Medyo armed ako ng balita kaya ang lakas ng loob kong magtaas ng kamay. Diniscuss din pala namin ang history ng Journalism. Ang cool, it brings back those 1st year lessons.

TW~ Sayang di kumanta ng happy birthday, baka daw maistorbo ang pagtuturo ni Ma'am Fama.

Lunch~ I'm not looking forward to this period anymore. Puro hw din naman ang ginagawa ako. Pero may good news, may BUKO PANDAN shake na. Yipee! You know, siguro mamahalin ko na rin ang subject na ito uli (subject ba 'to?), kasi.. basta. Siguro kasi hindi ko sila makikita. MWAHAHA.

Filipino~ Ala akong hw, kasi di ko maintindihan. Buti nalang mabait si ma'am at binigyan kami ni Lornalyn ng 2nd chance. :)

Trigo~ Nagcheck lang kami ng SW notebooks ng ibang section. Grabe, nawawala ko pala yung akin, uulitin ko daw yun basta iba ang given. Ang bait talaga ni ma'am, nibigyan niya ako ng 2nd chance.

P.E.~ Ang lupit ng basketball pass. bow. at maingay rin kami pero okay lang kay ma'am Okafor. haha, ang sarap din palang magjogging pag umuulan. Yahoo.

ABR~ dapat pala aakyat kami upang kumopya ng activity, kaya lang binura ni Asher eh. Tsk.

So pumunta nalang kami ni Klangster sa Mcdo, and we talked about something again. Grabe, kailan niya kaya ipagpapatuloy ang gawain niya. Anlupiiit. Sana marealize niya na nagbabago na siya, kasi marami ng nakakapansin (hindi si Klang yun, baka mamisunderstood nio ako). SO pagdating namin sa Mcdo, nakita namin ang ibang berze, and we talked about random stuff...and spin the bottle. Dito na ako nabadtrip, ewan ko ba kung bakit (di naman tungkol sa Spin the bottle). Asar. >.

At anu bang ginagawa ko sa Berze? Di naman ako matalino. Lumayolayo na kaya ako? baka kasi nakakainvade na ako ng lives. >:)

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Yun, lilinawin ko lang po ang sarili ko. Hindi ako emo. Problemado lang ako at hindi ako ang gumagawa ng sarili kong problema. Umiiyak ako kasi hindi ko mapigilan, hindi dahil kumukuha ako ng atensyon. At bakit naman ako kukuha ng atensyon? Yayaman ba ako pag marami akong ganun? Pwede ba, please.

At sana, iwasan niyong ikumpara ako sa ibang tao. Eh ano naman kung hindi ako ganoong katalino? Eh ano naman kung hindi ko ningingitian ang problema? Eh ano naman kung hindi ako payat at maganda? Umayos nga kayo, wala akong pakialam sa sinasabi niyo. Mahal ko ang sarili ko, pero pinaparamdam niyo na napakainferior ko. Kaya madalas asar ako sa school eh, kung kayo man ay curious. Kasi sawa na akong maikumpara sa iba. Kung hindi niyo tanggap ang pagkatao ko, edi wag niyo akong lapitan.

Ganun naman kadali yun diba?
Dammit.

Yay

2009-07-12T22:09:00.003+08:00

Yay, bagong layawt!
Sino sa inyo ang kyot?
Dali, ilink ko kau!!
Okay lang. :D

Daan na lang sa CBOX.
Hindi pa ako nakakapaglagay ng comment thingy eh.

Geh paalam,
gagawin ko pa Filipino. :)

JAI HO!

2009-07-12T19:07:00.004+08:00

10th picture of my picture folder.

Yowza! Ako gumawa niyan. hehehehe. Proud ako sa coloring na ginawa ko. Nainspire ako ng mabuti nung napanuod ko ang Slumdog Millionare sa MOA with some Archi mammals. Ang ganda niya. Super. JAI HO!

Tag ko kayong lahat. =))

IDK, IDC

2009-07-12T16:52:00.003+08:00

Masaya ako ngayon, walang kokontra! :D

Although Harry watched his two friends more closely over the next few days,
Ron and Hermione did not seem any different except that they were a little
politer to each other than usual. Harry supposed he would just have to wait to
see what happened under the influence of butterbeer in Slughorn’s dimly lit room
on the night of the party.
(American) Chapter 14, Felix Felicis, Page 283

“Harry’s snogged Cho Chang!” shouted Ginny, who sounded close to tears
now. “And Hermione snogged Viktor Kurm, it’s only you who acts like it’s
something disgusting, Ron, and that’s because you’ve got about as much
experience as a twelve-year-old!” And with that, she stormed away. Harry quickly
let go of Ron; the look on his face was murderous.
(American) Chapter 14,
Felix Felicis, Page 286-8

“Do you think Hermione did snog Krum?” Ron
asked abruptly, as they approached the Fat Lady. Harry gave a guilty start and
wrenched his imagination away from a corridor in which no Ron intruded, in which
he and Ginny were quite alone –

“What?” he said confusedly. “Oh . . . er
. . .”
The honest answer was “yes,” but he did not want to give it. However,
Ron seemed to gather the worst from the look on Harry’s face.
(American)
Chapter 14, Felix Felicis, Page 289

“How are you both feeling?” she
asked tentatively, her eyes on the back of Ron’s head.
(American) Chapter
14, Felix Felicis, Page 293

Harry shook his head. Ron gaped at him for a
moment, then rounded on Hermione, imitating her voice. “You added Felix Felicis
to Ron’s juice this morning, that’s why he saved everything! See! I can save
goals without help, Hermione!”
“I never said you couldn’t - Ron, you thought
you’d been given it too!”

But Ron had already strode past her out of the
door with his broomstick over his shoulder.
“Er,” said Harry into the sudden
silence; he had not expected his plan to backfire like this, “shall…shall we go
up to the party, then?”
“You go!” said Hermione, blinking back tears. “I’m
sick of Ron at the moment, I don’t know what I’m supposed to have done….”
And she stormed out of the changing room too.
(American) Chapter 14,
Felix Felicis, Page 299-300

He did not see how he could possibly explain
to Hermione that what she had done to offend Ron was kiss Viktor Krum, not when
the offense had occurred so long ago.
(American) Chapter 14, Felix Felicis,
Page 300

He had no idea what to say to her. He was just wondering
whether there was any chance that she had not noticed Ron, that she had merely
left the room because the party was a little too rowdy, when she said, in an
unnaturally high-pitched voice, “Ron seems to be enjoying celebrations.”
“Er
. . . does he?” said Harry.
“Don’t pretend you didn’t see him,” said
Hermione. “He wasn’t exactly hiding it, was — ?”
The door behind them burst
open. To Harry’s horror, Ron came in, laughing, pulling Lavender by the hand.
“Oh,” he said, drawing up short at the sight of Harry and Hermione.
“Oops!” said Lavender, and she backed out of the room, giggling. The door
swung shut behind her.
There was a horrible, swelling, billowing silence.
Hermione was staring at Ron, who was refusing to look at her, but said with an
odd mixture of bravado and awkwardness, “Hi, Harry! Wondered where you’d got
to!”
Hermione slid off the desk. The little flock of golden birds continued
to twitter in circles around her head so that she looked like a strange,
feathery model of the solar system.

“You shouldn’t leave Lavender
waiting outside,” she said quietly. “She’ll wonder where you’ve gone.”
She
walked very slowly and erectly toward the door. Harry glanced at Ron, who was
looking relieved that nothing worse had happened.
“Oppugno!” came a shriek
from the doorway.
Harry spun around to see Hermione pointing her wand at
Ron, her expression wild. The little flock of birds was speeding like a hail of
fat golden bullets toward Ron, who yelped and covered his face with his hands,
but the birds attacked, pecking and clawing at every bit of flesh they could
reach.
“Gerremoffme!” he yelled, but with one last look of vindictive fury,
Hermione wrenched open the door and disappeared through it. Harry though he
heard a sob before it slammed.
(American) Chapter 14, Felix Felicis, Page
301-2

Diba ankyot ng love story nila. =))

Anyway, Sunday na naman. Argg. Papasok na naman sa school, wala na naman akong gagawin. I'm not even looking forward to it. Wala namang inspirasyon. MWAHAHAHA. Siguro yung mga kaklase ko lang. Bahala na, whatever. Para namang may magagawa ako pffbbt.

Grabe

2009-07-12T03:01:00.004+08:00

Alam kong dapat nananaginip na ako ngayon. Yet di parin ako dinadapuan ng antok (haha, bangaw ba ito?). Ilang weeks (months) na ba akong ganito? Depressed na kaya ako?

Symptoms of Atypical Depression :

sadness
loss of energy
feelings of hopelessness or worthlessness
loss of enjoyment in things that were once pleasurable
difficulty
concentrating
uncontrollable crying
difficulty making decisions
irritability
increased need for sleep
insomnia or excessive sleep
unexplained aches and pains
stomachache and digestive problems
headache
a change in
appetite that causes weight loss or gain

Uhm, wow. Iyan yung mga symptoms na nararamdaman this past few weeks. Mygaad. Depressed na pala ako, hindi ko alam. >.<

I need to get over this shit as soon as possible.

She can get it

2009-07-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

Grabe.
Bakit ba gising pa ako ngayon?
Oh right...

dun dun dun dun

Homework! XD
Argg, ang sakit na ng mata ko. Wala namang cool colors na mapagmamasdan dito sa paligid ko. huhu. I wanna chop my head off...again. Kasi panu ba naman, anu naman kayang irarason ko kung bakit kailangan kong isama ang THE CATCHER IN THE RYE sa aking pagmumukmok sa Antartica. Tapos, inaalala ko pa yung Physics, ayoko naman makastrike uli sa test. Ang hirap, grabe ang feeling. Nalilito parin ako. Darn!

buuuut....to brighten things up, guess what I've got a while ago? :D:D

Wipee! Excited na ako. Haha, ididikit ko sa kwarto yang higanteng POOOOSTER na yan. =))

~~EDIT: Ayon, nahanap ko na yung FSATM ko! MWAHAHAHA!!!~~

Burbankers Mammals.

2009-07-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

O diba? Haha. Ankyooooot. Masaya sila kasama at maingay sila. XD. Akala ko nga nung una, mahihirapan akong mapakisamahan sila eh. Joketime lang pala yun. Dahil sa isang misunderstanging, lalong tumibay yung samahan ng Burbies (hala, gumaganun). Ayon, kahit ilang beses kaming mareport okay lang. Nyahahaha! I'm looking forward for more memories. :))

Pero syempre, la parin tatalo sa Marconi. Oha. Imagine.

At syempre, nagpapasalamat ako kay Doc:

Doc: you know why blood clots?
Ako: y?
Doc: it is
because you can bleed to death with a single small cut
Doc: imagine!
Ako: oooh.
Doc: you chop your head off and you will die of blood loss!
Doc: hahaha
Ako: hahaha!
Doc: =))
Ako: ang sakit na ng ulo ko eh
Doc: just wanna make sure you are not having along face for 30 mins straight

Ayun, salamat! Haha, atleast tumawa naman daw ako habang ginagawa ang Physics. XDXD

Before the Storm :)

2009-07-11T20:51:00.001+08:00

Good day? Haha.

Medyo mas maayos na ako mag-isip ngayon kumpara sa last week at sa last week. Basta ganun. Ewan ko ba, parang ang dami kasing pagbabago na hindi katanggap-tanggap. Pasensya na sa mga taong naiinis/nalungkot/nahihiwagaan sa pagkaemo ko last week at this week. Haha, pasensya na ha. Hindi po ako naghahanap ng simpatya, pero nakalakihan ko na ang pag-iyak sa problema. It's a habit, mahirap tanggalin. Besides, mababa ang luha ko, iniyakan ko ang pagkamatay ni Charlotte sa Charlotte's Web.

Seryoso akong tao, hindi ako yung tipo na madalas tinatawanan ang mga seryosong bagay. Hindi ako yung tipong ngumingiti nalang at kinakalimutan ang lahat. Pero hindi ako emo, mygaad. Masasapak ko ang taong magsasabi nun. Hindi ako naglalaslas. Sinasabi ko man na gusto ko na mag pass away (LOL), di naman yun natutuloy. Reflex ko na yun. =))

Siguro masasabi ko na medyo umayos na ang sitwasyon sa happy place ko. Okay na kami ni mommy, misunderstanding lang naman kasi, Tapos medyo nakakahabaol na ako sa lessons. Ang natitira nalang ay ang pagiging lantutay ko sa klase at iba pang random stuff.

Marami akong tanong na gusto kong masagot, karamihan naman doon ay hindi ako kasali. So ayon, ililista ko sila. Baka sakaling makarelate kayo at mabigyan niyo ako ng advice. :)

1. Bakit nagbabago na si Ehem?

~ Ewan ko ba. Hindi naman talaga ako ang sole witness ng kanyang extreme makeover (or makeunder daw). Pero sa mga naririnig ko, nakakalungkot isipin ang mga nangyayari. Sana maayos na ito. Ayokong mauwi sa wala ang lahat. Ayoko siya maging transformers (Megatron?) sa totoong buhay, kasi importante siya sa buhay ng kanyang mga kaibigan.

2. Bakit ang landi landi ni...?

~ This goes without saying. Nakakainis siya. Kalalaking tao eh saksakan ng landi. Kung saan saan kumakapit para makalimot. Anu ka, tuko? Masyado kang malaki para maging tuko no. Alam na ng Marconi kung sino ka, huhuntingin ka namin.

3. Why do good things happen when I'm not around?

~ Wala naman akong balat sa ehem. Kumusta naman. :P

4. Bakit Squishy ang tawag niyo sa akin?

~ Okay. Tanggap ko naman na plump akong tao, bakit kailangan niyo pang gumamit ng euphemism? LMAO. Okay lang naman talaga sa akin, kaya lang...nalalamog na ang pisngi ko. Masyado pa akong bata para magkaroon ng sagging skin. Haha. At sa mga tumatawag sa akin ng squishy *EHEM!*, ayos lang naman. Pero sana tandaan niyong mas matanda ako sa karamihan sa inyo. Haha. (Para namang makikinig sila. XD)

5. Bakit iba ang takbo ng isip ko? Bakit ang killjoy ko?

~ Sabi nga sa facebook, ang maturity level ko ay pang 21 years old. 17% retarded din ako. Yay. Well, truth be told, pet peeve ko lang talaga ang sobrang ingay na wala naman talagang katuturan. Ayon, at saka pala ayaw ko na ginagawa akong baby. Haha.

6. Buhay pa ba ang Archi?

~ Sana.

7. Kyot parin ba ang Marconi?

~ Sana walang magbago sa inyo. Kahit nakakairita kayo last year, ayokong mawala iyon. Kayo yung madalas magpasaya sa akin, kahit na pinapaiyak niyo ako. haha. Aun, thank you. Bow.

8. Burbank?

~ Masaya sila kasama. Haha. Sana ganito parin tayo hanggang sa matapos ang taon. Sana mas maging close pa tayo, ankyot niyo kasi. XD.

9. Bakit ang hirap ng Physics?

Ipagpapatuloy. :)

Can't you see?

2009-07-11T20:48:00.001+08:00

Bago na naman.
This time seryoso na.
Yes!

P.S. Happy Birthday, Francis Jose! :)

On this day of your life, Jonah Alyssa, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can't rid the world of sorrow, but you can choose to live in joy.
	Sorrow is with us not because we are bad at stopping it, but simply because it's part of being human. What matters is not whether good or bad things happen - both will, but your relationship to them. Just think back over the last 24 hours, - what had you taken hard that you could have taken lightly?